Here’s what I want you to do:

Find a quiet, secluded place so

you won’t be tempted to role-

play before God. Just be there as

simply and honestly as you can

manage. The focus will shift

from you to God, and you will

begin to sense his grace.

 

Matthew 6:6 (Msg)

 

This past month I realized I was stuck in a rut of focusing on me. Now don’t get me wrong self care is super important and that is not what I am talking about. What I found was that I was focusing on me, my strength. I was getting frustrated with my weight that honestly isn’t where I’d like.

 

A bit of a back story thirteen years ago I started my wellness journey. I received a picture of my niece’s graduation and that was the straw. I was wearing my favorite, “slimming” top which was not slimming at all. My monthly…..or not so monthly cycle was all out of Wack. Doctors were recommending me to specialist and I was tired. Here I was 28 years old and in the worse shape of my life. My body hurt, I was uncomfortable in my own skin. Over the course of six-seven years I became obsessed with thinning out my body. I was never satisfied no matter how much weight I lost. I found myself working out several times a day seeking ways to manipulate my body more. That is when I realized there was more. I went to Revelation Wellness Instructor training and that was the moment I knew God had more for me. I am now in the navigating the freedom space. The space where I get to move in worship, in thanksgiving for who the Lord is and how he is working through me.

 

So the past few months the weight I have carried has triggered traumas in my body that has brought up old feelings. As I have been moving my body, I have could feel the old striving to manipulate my body not to serve but to see what I can do. This leads to pride and Lord knows I do not want to go back there. Last week I read Matthew 6:6 I was broken. I saw that I was partnering with chains that I had broken in the past. Now to let those chains fall I focus on the Lord. I focus on what he has for me and how I get to praise him through the imperfections. I get to celebrate others and encourage others to put God first.

 

Now this will not drop the weight in 30 days, I am not about that, but I get to take my choices and put them as acts to serve God. From the food I eat to the moves I make they are acts of worship to God. I love the verse:

 

“Everything is permissible for me,” but not everything is beneficial. “Everything is permissible for me,” but I will not be mastered by anything

 

2 Corinthians 6:12

 

Change your focus. Turn your focus on God and take time to look up this month.